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My World, My Life, My Journey ... Let's Thrive



There’s been a shift in my world. Like what was acceptable yesterday, simply isn’t today. It happens that fast, Change. Today I am choosing to embrace it.  Time and time again all I have done is come up with a million and seven excuses why I couldn’t do this or that, or so and so prevented me from doing this when at the root of it all, it was me. I was standing in my own way. Not anymore. I am sick to death of feeling sad, empty, lost, unwanted, unloved and most of all I am sick of settling for second best. This is my life, this is my story and I will be damned if I am not going to be the star of it.
Everything in my life has brought me to where I am right now, sitting in front of this computer, writing this message. Every day is a new challenge that pushes me mentally and some days physically. The mental part I’ve seemed to struggle with the most. It’s not easy taking responsibility for where you are in life.  It almost sounds unbelievable that one day you can be leading one life and then boom, an epiphany happens and you’re on a completely different track leading a brand new direction with a whole new destination. But it’s not. It happens. It happens every day. And it happens when you become aware of your own self-being. It’s proving to be one the hardest transition periods in my life thus far.
Every day it feels like I am suppose to be somewhere else. And for the life of me, I can never figure out where exactly that is. But when I think about it, I feel happy there. It’s pretty much like my own little escape. The first question that probably pops into your mind is how can you get there if you don’t know where you're suppose to go? And that’s just it! That’s the fricken beauty of it. I don’t need to know right now. But what I do know is that there is some place out there calling my name. It’s a place where I am content, happy, and free. That place can be anywhere I want it to be.
That’s what my journey is all about, Me. Who do I want to be? What values do I want to have? What lifestyle do I want to lead? And what kind of people do I want to surround myself with? Every single question there is all within my control. I can choose these things. Once upon a time, I didn’t think you could. I thought I had to be who my parents wanted me to be, that I had to value the exact same things they did, that my lifestyle had to based on someone else's idea of success, and that when shitty people came into my life that I couldn’t stand up for myself because it might hurt them. Even though, it was hurting me more to have them there than to just let go. 

These are all things learned with time and mostly experience. You have to take some the bad with the good.  Pain is a part of growth, so is sadness and anger in the same way that happiness and contentment are. It’s life. Today I had to ask myself, if I was willing to do whatever it takes to change my life for the better and if I am willing to accept my past and let go.
My answer to that was YES.
Big things are coming and this is only the beginning.  Stay Tuned!

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