Balance Series Episode 1

And so it begins... the dive in head first and hope it's deep enough kind of scenario. There comes a time in life where you sit there and think, man, what the fuck am I doing with my life?! That point where "adulting" becomes a real thing when you thought it was just some trendy hashtag... well it's not. Being an adult is the real deal. There is no do overs, no take backs, there is just you, time and what you do with your time. I admit, I spent far too long doing nothing productive with my time. Now that I am finally back in school, it really made me think, if I would have applied myself back in high school what career I could have had... and then I think well, the path I took made me into the person I am today and I am forever thankful for each experience I went through that moulded me into the strong, independent and intelligent woman I am right now, writing this blog. Squash looking back and what could have been because darling, that ship sailed. There is just the present and the future and in June 2018 I was faced with a serious choice to make about who I wanted to be. I had picked up my life, moved cities where I didn't know anyone, my family was 3 hours away, and I was just winging it praying for the best. The first 6 months felt almost too good to be real. I had an amazing basement suite, I had a killer job managing a gym and I met the man of my dreams. So fast forward a few months and low and behold the owner had sold the gym leaving me and my staff all jobless... *Jaw hits floor in shock* This was honestly my make or break moment. What was I gonna do? Did I want to continue working different jobs every couple years or did I want to create a career for myself and have some long term stability? now, reading this you're probably thinking that's a no brainer but when you're in that position it's not so easy. You think, well, how am I going to afford school? What could I even take? What is a realistic time frame for me? What would this do to my new found relationship mentally and financially? So since i'm writing this blog it's pretty clear what route I chose and every day is a learning curve. Five months later and here I am working full time and a full time student.... I manage a studio full time and have chosen Phlebotomy as my career of choice. Doing distance learning has been incredibly challenging and it comes down to, how bad do you want to succeed?  Some of the course material has me mind fucked for days and with some classes within hours my head feels like it is going to explode... and at the start it really overwhelmed me. I seriously questioned if this was something I could buckled down and follow through with. The one thing I am learning is to take everything in stride. Every minute, every hour and day by day. What needs to come first? What can wait? etc... Prioritizing your time is crucial. I'd be lying if I said it was a walk in the park and it didn't take a toll on anything but ya, I've had to make some sacrifices. One being, the financial blow it took on my relationship. However, I am beyond lucky to have someone so supportive in my corner pushing for me to succeed as much as I push myself. Second, being making time for everything! Work, school, gym, clean, cook, see family and so on... thank god there is no kids in the mix yet. That would really have my head spinning.
Anyway, my point is nothing in life worth having comes easy. I am learning and growing so much from this experience!
Stay Tuned for the next episode where I talk about the realities of relationships while in school and juggling time!