Planting The Seed

They told me I was a dreamer... a girl with tons of potential but that's all I would ever be, is just that- a girl with JUST potential. A few short years ago, I use to believe those people. Almost as if they knew me better than I had known myself... but how was that possible? Well turns out-  it wasn't. So why did I believe all this mambo jumbo? Its goes like this... You know when you go through that period in your life where you suddenly hit a wall and wonder is this all I'll ever be?.... inquiring like deep down you know you're destined for something more.. leaving you to question everyone and everything you've ever known, including yourself... In that vulnerable period of time it's easy to start believing in what other thinks of you... why? Because during this time you're unsure of own self so obviously the way other people view you must be right.... WRONG! It's on these moments of self discovery that mould us even deeper into who we're ...

The beat, You feel it, In your chest, In your feet, It's in sync with your soul, Pounding and surrounding all that fear inside you, Boom boom, It beats it, Defeats it Rise up with the rhythm, Flow as you go, Get lost in melody, The beat, It's who you are, Boom boom, Goes that beat in your chest, Invest, Demand and protest, For better days, It's all you've got, So fear not, This is your song.

You can't prepare for it. You can tell yourself a million times you'll be ok; this is what you want; you'll be strong enough but the reality is-  you cant predict the situations you may find yourself in. When the future is unknown, how do you prepare for it? Well you could be like me and read books that challenge your mental strength, views of life and other perspectives that when you do find yourself faced with unexpected situations or wave of emotions  you can apply those tools  you've learned or you can throw yourself to the wolves and hope to come out alive.   Neither option is bad. Just both are two different ways of living.  Over the past 6 months I've read my books, maintained a fairly routined life where I was able to apply some of tools from the books I had read. The thing with that was, my life was so routined that although I couldn't predict the future I knew that no matter which tool I chose to use, the outcome wouldn't be life altering. In othe...

Question: Is life full of lessons to learn or is it learning the lesson of life? Take a second to think about that. There isn't one thing you have gone through, currently going through and will go through that doesn't result in taking you one step closer to your destination. Your destination being- what it is that you desire in life. Do you desire success? Happiness? Financial freedom? A new bike? A career you love? To know what you desire and want is to know that there are things in life that you don't want. You will acquire many things and meet many people but what and who feed your soul? The parts that don't are virtually "things" you would typically not want in your life. The key is learning to become OK with saying this isn't what I want. To be able to achieve this requires perspective. The ability to view outcomes based on a observer vs participant point of view. Observer being future driven and participant being a present/ current stimulation.  Wh...

Lost- the mental state of not knowing where you're suppose to be. An exhilarating yet, unsettling state of being. Since I have embarked on this wonderful journey, I often catch myself feeling LOST. It doesn't seem to matter where I am or what I am doing- I am simply lost.  There are days I feel conflicted in the sense that I love where I am, I love the environment and for the most part I quite enjoy the community. On the end of it I continually find myself re mincing about back home. To be truthful- there isn't a hell of a lot that I miss, but the parts I do eat at me every day. It's a constant void in my heart. But that's why I am here and have chosen to take part in this journey, The journey of healing.  A huge part of growing is learning to let go. Let go of what was,  what is and what will be. You can't change what has happened- so move on. You can't dictate your present being so enjoy the moment and more importantly you can't for-see every...